Blue Mondays
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Blue Mondays
This is becoming quite a routine. Quite an intolerable routine.
For a mere 12 hours ago, I was in a place which, to me, had a reasonably good chance of passing itself off as heaven. Lying there, alone with a wonderful, beautiful girl, and without a single care. On such a high, oblivious to the realities of life, and even the realities of the relationship I was actively engaged in, I could very well have just kept lying there until my dying breath, fooling myself all the way, and that would have been just fine with me.
And now, like the worst kind of addict, I'm coming crashing down again. And again. Nerves on maximum overdrive, terrified by the feeling that at any moment, I stand an excellent chance of either busting out crying, or taking this fire extinguisher and breaking every fucking window in this building.
It will be better tomorrow, and better still on Wednesday. Her scent on my sheets will gradually be covered up by a layer of cat fur, I'll throw out all the remnants of her visit, and the memories of it, like those of the last three weekends, will find its way to the back of my mind where it can hide in anonymity amongst the various other dreams swimming through my head.
Friday, I'll be all better, and anxious once more to get my fix.
The wheels on the bus go round and round, round and round, round and round.
But I don't know how long I can keep this up.
For a mere 12 hours ago, I was in a place which, to me, had a reasonably good chance of passing itself off as heaven. Lying there, alone with a wonderful, beautiful girl, and without a single care. On such a high, oblivious to the realities of life, and even the realities of the relationship I was actively engaged in, I could very well have just kept lying there until my dying breath, fooling myself all the way, and that would have been just fine with me.
And now, like the worst kind of addict, I'm coming crashing down again. And again. Nerves on maximum overdrive, terrified by the feeling that at any moment, I stand an excellent chance of either busting out crying, or taking this fire extinguisher and breaking every fucking window in this building.
It will be better tomorrow, and better still on Wednesday. Her scent on my sheets will gradually be covered up by a layer of cat fur, I'll throw out all the remnants of her visit, and the memories of it, like those of the last three weekends, will find its way to the back of my mind where it can hide in anonymity amongst the various other dreams swimming through my head.
Friday, I'll be all better, and anxious once more to get my fix.
The wheels on the bus go round and round, round and round, round and round.
But I don't know how long I can keep this up.
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Until August 7th, 2003. You'll miss that weekend unless you bring her to Vegas with you.pinback wrote:But I don't know how long I can keep this up.
the dark and gritty...Ice Cream Jonsey!
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Hey, you do your job, and let me do mine.Ice Cream Jonsey wrote:Until August 7th, 2003. You'll miss that weekend unless you bring her to Vegas with you.pinback wrote:But I don't know how long I can keep this up.
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... Oooooooookaaaaaaaaaaay!
I find it very admirable that Ben is not OK with a situation where he has a woman in his life to basically suck and fuck his brains out over the weekend and then leaves him the rest of the week to get stuff done.
I'd say that this would be the ideal situation for all of us who play softball and write, badly, video game content during the week, but admittedly, you women are oftentimes so cute that a solid "together" guy like myself or Benjamin "Pinback" Parrish just can't help wanting to have you around all the time. Sure, it makes Ben come off like the narrator in the Splender song "Space Boy," but still.
... Oooooooookaaaaaaaaaaay!
I find it very admirable that Ben is not OK with a situation where he has a woman in his life to basically suck and fuck his brains out over the weekend and then leaves him the rest of the week to get stuff done.
I'd say that this would be the ideal situation for all of us who play softball and write, badly, video game content during the week, but admittedly, you women are oftentimes so cute that a solid "together" guy like myself or Benjamin "Pinback" Parrish just can't help wanting to have you around all the time. Sure, it makes Ben come off like the narrator in the Splender song "Space Boy," but still.
the dark and gritty...Ice Cream Jonsey!
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Why does this have to be so good and so horrible at the same time? This is the best, worst thing that's ever happened to me. GOD.
I should never have gone to that fucking Halloween party. I knew it before I left the house. I said, "This is not a good idea. Nine months from now, you are going to be a wrecked, wracked shell of a person because of this party."
But I did not listen. I did not listen, and now I am paying for it.
I feel like I'm going to vomit.
Fuck.

I should never have gone to that fucking Halloween party. I knew it before I left the house. I said, "This is not a good idea. Nine months from now, you are going to be a wrecked, wracked shell of a person because of this party."
But I did not listen. I did not listen, and now I am paying for it.
I feel like I'm going to vomit.
Fuck.

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pinback wrote:Why does this have to be so good and so horrible at the same time? This is the best, worst thing that's ever happened to me. GOD.
I'm going to ignore the fact that you used an emoticon and instead say that you're dwelling too much on the negatives. Now, George Alec Effinger DID say that humans are made for sorrow and not joy. And that what feels like equal amounts of sorrow and joy are not in fact anywhere equal. You have to have like three sessions of hard skullfucking to equal the pain inherent in simply closing the door on your fingers. That sort of thing.But I did not listen. I did not listen, and now I am paying for it. I feel like I'm going to vomit. Fuck.
GAE isn't with us any longer, but *I* am. And I say: remember the positives! And anyway, you keep this up long enough and she'll become your girlfriend out of habit. It's a test of stamina -- the kind of stamina that I think you do happen to possess.
Chin up, buddy!
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I'd hate to play favorite but you've just got to maintain at least 1% level of decency in the regular and 0% in the troll room. Though, I don't know how good of a post James made. It was inflamatory. So are the majority of posts ... the trick is ... to not be inflamed. Blue, geez, you came on here to make sure someone wasn't discussing things you deemed personal ... decent enough. Though can we just behave ... not like people even ... just like domesticated animals ... that's pretty much all that seems to be needed here.
EDIT: Sometimes I eat ice cream to make myself feel better. Bond, "Completely off Topic" covered that blue was ... off topic. You don't need to insult or demean people. Maybe, it was in the style of ICJ and Pinback and the hostility was all fake ... that only works if the other person fakes it back. Maybe, BLUE is a little to spiteful ... but majorly when provoked. So, Bond, BLUE? EAT SOME ICE CREAM!
EDIT: Sometimes I eat ice cream to make myself feel better. Bond, "Completely off Topic" covered that blue was ... off topic. You don't need to insult or demean people. Maybe, it was in the style of ICJ and Pinback and the hostility was all fake ... that only works if the other person fakes it back. Maybe, BLUE is a little to spiteful ... but majorly when provoked. So, Bond, BLUE? EAT SOME ICE CREAM!
Good point Bobby!
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Hey, Blue, if <b><i>I</i></b> come to Rochester, will you bob up and down on my fucking ugly cock? I think I'd like that. You can spit in my face afterwards if you want.BLUE wrote:FUCK YOU JAMES BOND AND FUCK YOU PINBACK> I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF YOU >>> YOU LITTLE WHINY PATHETIC BITCH! WHY DON"T YOU COME TO ROCHESTER SO I CAN SPIT IN YOUR FUCKING UGLY FACE! THAT IS A DARE...
But I don't want Pinback or JB doing it. Ugh.
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WHOA hold up, I don't see SysOp as one of your title here, and I for one enjoy Blues company. You are in bitter women teritory man, take that shit out on the bitch doing it, not the regulars of the BBS.pinback wrote:You don't belong here, BLUE.
You seem like a sweet enough kid, but this really is not the place for you. Feel free to enjoy some of the internet's other fine bulletin board systems and discussion forums!
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